If I love you, I will love you like you are the only person in this whole wide universe.
You see, I am the kind of person who loves addictions. I like getting addicted to certain things. But it happens very very rarely. And once it happens, it's till eternity for me. And it's not like ki I'll get ungrateful in sometime. I'll always love and cherish that thing. I will get obsessed with it. If I get addicted to something I will never ever want to lose that thing again. Even if it kills me. And I will never regret this thing.
So if I love you, know that I'll be addicted to you. To your presence, know that you are special to me, you are the only one for me. You hold the keys to all my locks. You own me. I will be all yours all my life. And I will never look at another girl for any kind of comfort ever. I won't expect anything from anyone else. You are the one for me now. I will die before I ever cheat on you. And this is the kind of loyalty I expect from you. I'll never ever give you a chance to be insecure about me. And understand please thy if I get insecure about you, it's because I am weak person and I will be afraid that you will leave me someday. I don't want to feel this. Ever. I wan you to be mine. All mine. Forever. Love me, love my body, my soul. Love me so so much that when we die, that love is still there. Like these bodies were just a tiny insignificant cog in the whole mechanism, the universe is working on.
Love me, show me that you love me. Shout out to the entire world that you love me, that you are mine. That I am yours. I'd do the same for you.
Love me like I am your first crush, love me like like we are in our teens. Kiss me like you'd have kissed me if we were on a punishment, standing out side our chemistry lecture in 12th class. Love me like we have grown old together. Like we have lived for centuries together. Love me like we are now grown and mature and have been married for 25 years and it's the night of our silver jubilee of our wedding. Love me like it's our honeymoon and we are in a newyork apartment. With dark wooden floors and white walls. Big plane glass windows. And there is this empty hall, with a mattress below a window, covered with white sheets. And all we have is time. Time for each other. All the time, just to explore our bodies.
Make love to me whenever you get a chance. I'd love that. And you'll see that I will do that. Make love to me when we are alone in the elevator, when we are on the stairs, in an auto, everywhere. Kiss me when we are sitting at the side of an alley in a mall. Hold my hands. Take my hands in yours when we walk. Hug me from side when we are in the middle of a busy market. Make my neck black with hickeys, I'd love that. And I'll bite yours. Wear my big loose tees, with nothing under them. And play with me. Play with my hands, my hair, my face. Let me play with yours. We shall play video games together and the smoke some weed and make love. Caress me, nurture me, pamper me. Cause I'll do the same to you. Love me unconditionally. Love me like a mother loves and cares for her 1 year old child. I need that love, I need that care. I have this this thirst for love. And this thirst is quenchable. I'll be content easily. I'll drop all my fears and loathing for everybody when I am with you and I know that you love me. I will cherish your love forever. I need your love, all your love, just for me. Only me. Please don't share it with anyone else. I can't even think of sharing you, or the love I have for you, all my love.
And please please please, don't ever cheat on me. This completely breaks me down. I hit the rock bottom in like a second. And I keep going down. My entire world, all my beliefs everything will shatter. I can't even imagine you with someone else. If I do something wrong, talk to me, make me understand. We'll work on things together. We'll work out everything. But please don't cheat on me. I will never ever leave you for someone else. But even if you want to leave me, tell me, don't hide things or cheat on me, things just get messier. If one day you really want me to rot in hell, to suffer the most, then you know this will be the only thing that will shake me till the bones. I'll just fall. And then I will just run away, run away from you, from everything. Cause I am weak and I can't handle all these situations. And I'll pretend that I hate you. I will still be in love with you, I'll still need you cause you see I am still addicted to you. My body and my soul still wants you. I'll start behaving all weird. Trying to do stupid things to get your attention back. To get you back. But I'll try to hate you. And then one day when it hit me what you actually did to me, I'll completely throw you out of my life. Like you never existed for me. And then eventually I'd start hating you. Hate you with each and every particle of my body. I will hate you from the deepest core oft heart. And I'll be all mean. And I'll even hate to see your face. I'd never ever want to meet you, again. I will hope you die and the satan sticks a needle in your eye. I will hope you are minced into pieces and then you rot in hell.
All I want is to be happy, and I want to share it with you. Forever.
I just want to be with you. Just the 2 of us, in this entire universe. You for me and me for you.
I want you to love me like this.
And this is how I'd love you.
Understand me, what kind of a person I am. That I lose my self for you, I just give in all that I have to you. That you own me.
Understand my addictions, understand my addiction for you. That I will be pathetic without you. Understand that I am weak, so weak that I won't be able to lose you. I haven't got the strength to give up on you. Understand my weaknesses and vulnerabilities.
I want you to take care of me.
Be there for me.
Be true to me.
Cause I will be the same.